Glimpse into the future

 Tonight I am looking at the clock and realize it is only 5. I think to myself time is going so slow, how am I going to do the next three hours alone. So after we had a frozen pizza for dinner I took the girls in the play room to pass time. Then I look again its only 5:45, by this time the baby is so sleepy I am just trying to keep her busy. Bath time around 6:30.. I know super early but time was dragging. I got everything ready before hand so I could get the girls pj's on in the same room. Well here it comes they are both screaming bloody murder. Jazi is trying to dress herself which only makes her so mad when it doesn't work out the way she wants it to. As I see both of there tears falling down there sweet faces.. I think to my self should I just cry with them?! Because I need two of me at this point to make both of there tears to go away.

  I am trying to make myself understand both girls will be older. But along the way I know there are going to be so many melt downs. Jazi within just these two days she has asked for her daddy, in her cute whiny voice (esp when she gets in trouble). Trying or even wanting to explain is difficult for me. Juliana will be around the age Jazlyn was when Jas got back the last time. She is going to wonder but only be able to express her feelings completely different than Jaz will . I will keep things as normal as possible its all about the routine. Both girls will adjust if we have a routine. 

 All the sudden my fears and  my sadness is being set aside for my girls. They are what is most important through this all. So in advance I want to say thank you to my family and friends. I may be a little on edge or emotional at times, But in the end will be fine because of the people I will have to listen.