Well after three weeks of just me and the girls I figured I was ready to blog about our journey. This journey of a whirlwind of emotions to speak. The girls and I have tried to settle into our own routine of things. I feel as if we have done pretty well, we still hit some bumps along the way. I feel like these three weeks has gone by quick and then I glance at the calendar and just want to take all the calendars out of the house. If you cant tell I don't count down the days.. just the days that has passed.
I know how much my husband means to me, I feel like this journey will make our bound so much stronger as odd as it may sound to someone. I feel we will bounce back even stronger. That is probably the only up side to this all. Because really this is incredible difficult to do with two small girls. For anyone who has said three and half months that isn't to bad, you haven't lived it with a three year old little girl.. that is truly a daddies girl! We have had a few nights where we both just miss him, I lay in bed with her and since she is unsure how to show emotions or just simply say I miss my daddy. She talks about the day he left and when I had a surprise for her ( a new coloring book) this is how I know in so many ways that she really misses him. So hard as a mom to realize that your baby girl is missing her daddy and there is nothing you can do. I have nothing really but distractions, which only works for a small period of time. To not be able to fix it is incredible hard as a mom.
So many emotions come back up while I am thinking of the goodbye and him packing his bags the week before. I just honestly dreaded that day more than anything. I thought of all the things I would miss. I basically miss everything.. its simple my husband is my best friend and my rock. I miss him for so many reasons.. but the number one is just for my girls they need him so much! I hope he always see just how much they need him. And how much I need him!
I knew it was going to be difficult with lots of bumps in the road. But I am a strong momma and wife. With the help of great friends and family, we are trucking right along with all our crazy emotions and all.
Boys feeding the goats
Of course these two.. they were trying to get it to stand on Jason. 
Clint the new farm boy. Haha! 
Prob the cutest monkey ever
Grammy and the girls look at the fox. 
Looking with her knocklers 
Clint breaking the rules feeding the animals
To much for Julie. 
Through the eyes of a three year old. What a fun time! 
I know how much my husband means to me, I feel like this journey will make our bound so much stronger as odd as it may sound to someone. I feel we will bounce back even stronger. That is probably the only up side to this all. Because really this is incredible difficult to do with two small girls. For anyone who has said three and half months that isn't to bad, you haven't lived it with a three year old little girl.. that is truly a daddies girl! We have had a few nights where we both just miss him, I lay in bed with her and since she is unsure how to show emotions or just simply say I miss my daddy. She talks about the day he left and when I had a surprise for her ( a new coloring book) this is how I know in so many ways that she really misses him. So hard as a mom to realize that your baby girl is missing her daddy and there is nothing you can do. I have nothing really but distractions, which only works for a small period of time. To not be able to fix it is incredible hard as a mom.
So many emotions come back up while I am thinking of the goodbye and him packing his bags the week before. I just honestly dreaded that day more than anything. I thought of all the things I would miss. I basically miss everything.. its simple my husband is my best friend and my rock. I miss him for so many reasons.. but the number one is just for my girls they need him so much! I hope he always see just how much they need him. And how much I need him!
